“Broken Man" by RedRedRose
A few evenings ago, in a moment of intimate conversation with my dear Basherte, she explained to me the process (at least from her perspective) of how “loving a man” is born inside a woman's heart. It was a moment of epiphany! Not because she was unveiling revolutionary details, but it was how she logically and sequentially phrased the steps, perfectly connecting them like unearthed pieces of ancient Chinese pottery — meticulously placed side by side to reveal a mystery called “Yin heart.” I was touched and astounded! She was imparting to me how a woman desires to be loved. It was like I didn’t want to miss a beat; I wanted to extract and absorb every morsel that fell from her sacred lips! It all made me love her that much more!
This discussion that follows isn't about her vision (I will leave that for a future writing), nor is it a “scientific analysis” of men’s cultural and emotional deficits. The real intent of this work is to look at why a majority of men haven’t a clue how to comprehend, let alone love, a woman’s heart. What I hope to stir is a deeper awareness of the “whys.” Why men have become so disconnected from women — leaving themselves essentially emotionally bankrupt. Why are we (men) so clueless of what my basherte describes as the “wondrous process of wooing a woman?” And finally, why are we so secretly fearful of not embracing the “call of Yin” (which in truth we sense, but know so little about)?
To understand these “whys,” I will lay out some of the more delusionary perspectives men operate from, and as a consequence, how men’s belief systems and actions negatively impact all aspects of life on this planet. First, I’d like to borrow a comment from an Amazon reader regarding archeologist Marija Gimbutas’ classic, The Civilization of the Goddess: The World of Old Europe. The commentator shares some interesting insights on the value of probable past matriarchal societies of ancient Europe:
"a compilation of cultural clues shows cultures which challenge all previous notions of how civilizations evolved. The basic equality in size of houses and graves, the emphasis on feminine images in art, the lack of defensive walls or caches of weapons, suggest civilizations focused on the arts of nurturing families, plants and animals. Perhaps the survival of the fittest here meant the flourishing of those best able to care for each other."
Here we see the potentially beneficial effect of societies where Yin (the feminine) was free to flourish and Be. And my belief is without these thriving societies we end up with what we have today; Yin and Yang imbalanced; Yang over-emphasized; unbridled competition, greed, hunger/famine, dominance of male over female, sexual exploitation, violence, war and genocide!
From an early age boys are taught that girls by nature are the weaker of the sexes, ignorantly confusing physical strength with intellectual fortitude, evidenced by the lack of certain “physical abilities” associated with boys/mens sports. That so called “gender frailty” is reinforced when girls begin to imitate and initiate the “nurturing and care-giving behaviors” demonstrated first by their mothers and secondarily by women in their Yin communities who surround them during their formative years. Girls inner-makeup deepens and they are blessed by observing and then modeling their female elders demonstration of ever greater levels of gentleness, care-giving, kindness, listening, compassion and intuitiveness. Boys, on the other hand, learn greater levels of aggression and “one-upmanship.” This may be why, at early developmental stages, boys begin to openly tease and scorn girls and use “gender slamming” as a form of universal put-down [e.g. ‘you act/throw/whine/cry like a girl’]. The fear factor is born.
Boys also learn, at a young age to quickly “dry their tears.” In the masculine culture tears are equated with “the weaker sex” (girls) and therefore used as a judgment on other boys as a sign of “weakness, lack of bravery and character impairment." Any boy seen crying beyond the age of seven or eight is castigated as a “pussy” [here female genitalia is pejoratively symbolized]. In need of help, by adulthood most men need some sort of intense “cry therapy” just to feel human again! In fact, any real sensitivity of the heart, a natural part of being human, men will diligently repress into a form of psychological malignancy! Lost in a sea of worry, desensitized and sometimes acting inhuman the male mind desperately clings to one key thought, “Life is a game of protecting myself from any form of emotional vulnerability; it's me against the world. I must and will protect myself at all costs!” And so a mantra is born.
As the years pass and with a scarcity of wise male mentors to guide these young men to deeper consciousnss, they enter what may be the most hard-hitting, confusing and painful time period of their lives, their high school years. Without wise direction — emotional immaturity, gender bias, a need to fit in, insensitivity towards others, irrationalism; and a lethal sex drive - render young men little more than emotional train-wrecks! All of this may sound a bit Orwellian or like a grim omen from an Old Testament, but it is what it is. Tragically, this “possessed mind-set” will last for decades. The sheer intensity of it easily parallels a scene from the third Star Trek movie, “In Search of Spock.” Mr. Spock’s dead body is resurrected (reborn) by the power of the Genesis Project. He’s discovered (now as a boy) on the Genesis planet by members of the Starship Enterprise. Spock is observed evolving from childhood to adulthood in a matter of minutes. As teenagers, the Vulcans enter into an intense transitional period called pon farr. It is at this point in time where soon to be adult Vulcans undergo a neurochemical imbalance that takes on a form of madness. A Vulcan could die within eight days if their pon farr isn't satiated. Science fiction and reality can speak a singular truth.
In the real human species, beset by lifelong fears and insecurities, teenage boys and adult men find temporary escape from their internal woes by creating one inadmissible scapegoat: WOMEN. Paradoxically, what men identify in women as “inferior,” is in reality Yin strength. This dichotomy between the sexes causes women to increasingly harden themselves towards men’s shallowness and sometimes moronic behaviors. Taken to the extreme, woman may eventually choose to tune-out completely and spend the rest of their days without male companionship (a whole topic onto itself).
Men on the other hand, reacting against women, indulge in a contemptible blame game! Such defective reasoning clearly demonstrates a great Yin/Yang imbalance inside the male (Yang) mind: men connected with their heads (no pun intended), but not their hearts. These misguided males enter a form of mental hypnotism, where comprehension and the gift of Yin (the feminine) is for the most part nonexistant. What he fails to grasp is her ability to see beyond the mundane; to out-think him and to out-last her emotionally stifled counterpart.
If a man’s own biases allow him to abide in a state of delusional superiority (excluding Yin as a necessary life factor), he actually cuts off his own right foot — leading to a gangrenous (inner) death. Yang cannot function without Yin, and vice versa. So by not seeing the continuity and co-operation of the Yin/Yang principle (male to female, female to male), fear allows him to descend into a discordant understanding of life, the universe and adherence with Yin (the feminine). In doing so he deprives himself of any possible connection that would fuse him to reality! What may be the most astounding aspect of this psychological drama is that in spite of his “irrational mind-set” and “rejection of his own potential authenticity,” he still intuitively (subconsciously) knows what’s right! Put another way, out of fear of personal exposure (the truth) and the need to “fix himself” (contrition) he chooses to suppress the very life-force he quietly knows he needs and direly longs for.
So what must we men do? One, is listen. Listen from within —not with our heads, but with our hearts; take time to “be attentive” to women. Allow the opportunity to “get to know them, the whole of them,” not just their “cup size,” or their attitudes towards “avant-garde sexual behavior.” Really get to know them; their pain, their joys, their disappointments and their sorrows. Here you will see their truest transcendent beauty. Watch and study how they comfort and love others, always giving of themselves. Observe them and savor every action they take. Study what is good and honorable about them. Lastly, laugh with them, and cry with them (if you can). In doing all these things you will begin, maybe for the first time in your life, to breathe freely. Your inhalation will no longer be purely physiological — but profoundly, inwardly deep - down to your core-essence. Your head will be lighter and your heart more vivacious. Life will begin to unveil remarkable color— astounding color beyond even what the human eye can detect. As time passes you will feel less “Yang” and more “Yin.” Balance of heart and thought will bring greater harmony to your Being, and there will be a slow, melting away of fear. MUCH LESS FEAR! As a result of your awakened state and energized presence, you will no longer feel disconnected from beauty, life, purpose, love, and most importantly, a women’s heart. A true sense of Being will arise within and guide you, even through the darkest times. Your journey as a man will come into the fullness of light and the resonance of Being... mark my words!
“In Tune” by Rosemary Kim Bal
Reading Walter Isaacson’s biography on the life of Steve Jobs, I came across a line early in the book where Jobs states, “The idealistic wind of the sixties is still at our backs, and most of the people I know who are my age have that ingrained in them forever.” I am a product of that idealism. Not that I can’t be as critical or cynical as the next guy, but there is a well-spring inside me that has always believed in the potential for human growth and personal enlightenment. I realize that climbing a stairwell to infinity is a perplexing notion, and logically (in this human existence) unattainable. But I have learned that it is not so much the goal, but rather the process itself that is most rewarding. In planting a young seedling it is not the mature tree that the planter witnesses, it is the wonderment of the seasons and long arduous trek the tree participates in towards maturity. The planter is simply immersed in the miracle of each season.
Yes, the sixties pushed the envelope: politically, economically, socially and maybe most importantly, spiritually (the term “spiritually” is not meant as an adherence to a doctrine or dogmatic equation). As this writer has often pondered, “The Tao” (God; Life Force, The Universe, that which exceeds our intellect, etc.) exists as something beyond our best attempts at conceptualization.” How could it be otherwise?
If life, as any of us know it, is what a grain of sand is to an ocean’s shoreline, so too, we must realize that life and human love are but small reflections of something much greater.
Any man who seeks to understand and love his woman with the best insights the Universe has to offer - will get back a thousand fold. This is the basic law of Love, the eternal axiom known by many as “sowing and reaping” or “karma.” It all begins with the realization that there is MORE to our developmental process than meets the minds-eye. May we all reverently bow to this phenomenon.
So where do we turn? How do we grow in the knowledge and action to serve our Beloveds? It may well begin with a simple nod and a recognition to the wisdom of the Universe itself. Allowing our hearts to be open and receptive to the unfolding of Life's purpose and blessings, even when such positive change potentially brings on acute discomfort. Though we are all hardwired to love and be loved, love is not simply a mental concept. It’s transcendent nature always points upwardly to the Divine! It opens a portal into the mysteries of all that is meaningful and good, and allows every man to find his own authentically. Such depth is no different when loving a woman. She is a miracle! An expression of the Yin side of creation. She carries in her heart and soul gifts needed and necessary to complete any man who sees beyond himself (or the culture that might argue otherwise). Women are the jewels that brings explosive color to an otherwise lackluster world and existence.